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Friday, July 31, 2009

goodness my life i realized is so mundane. i wake up, go to work, maybe go out for a meal with frens after work, go home, sleep and the whole cycle just continues repeating itself. that kinda suck. BLEAH!

NATIONAL DAY again later. gosh im kinda tired. haha.

omg and im so undecided about my future. as in i WANT to go into fashion. that is definite. but i dont know where to go, how to apply, how to get money if i want to go somewhere other than the options given to me. and the most important qn: AM I EVEN GOOD ENOUGH TO BE IN THE FASHION INDUSTRY?? i love fashion to be a fashion designer takes so much more than just loving fashion. the skills involved are countless and if u suck, u wont even be looked at. ugh. that thought just scares me. so many ppl tell me to do fashion and i keep announcing it but what if i dun become it. will i become a mockery?? bleah. anyway i just hope that when the time comes, i'll be ready.

these were random thoughts that just came into my mind.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

i realized that people have actually been reading my blog which makes me kinda happy that im not writing in a dead blog but then again im just writing in this blog for myself.

i just went out with wg, june and justin for dinner. its always great to see my frens and the fact tt we've made it a weekly affair makes it special. i dno but wg seemed kinda pissed and june has something gg on for her. GURL I HOPE U'RE FINE!! we went to this jap restaurant which wasnt like great or anything it was OK. and then we went to udders for ice cream. frankly, i feel that andersen's is better because of the quality of their ice creams but i definitely love the fact that ice cream shops like island creamery and udders are always improving themselves by taking in suggestions by customers. haha.

oo and today was an important vetting for the NDOC'09. it went quite well and overall the day didnt go badly just a little tired and kinda ambivalent about gg to work tmr because i love my job but i wish i cld just sleep in. hahaha. however, something that has been secretly bugging me is the upcoming roadshow item boom boom pow. im glad like ive gotten yet another opportunity to explore my creative side but im just freaking scared that i cant get the costumes done in time and tt it wldnt turn out nice at all. and this feeling of fear just makes me bite my fingernails (that was just a figure of speech by the way.) i just really hope that God will guide me in the correct way to take things. plus i also have to build good rapports with the tailors and my bosses (some reasonable and some just pure shitheads) but o well.

Monday, July 27, 2009

i need to get rid of those large black eye rings and get some contacts. ugh!

i was thinking of getting this hairstyle (or at least something to this effect). what do you think.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

150 posts and counting.

hmmm since im SO bored i decided i would come out with the top 10 things i want to fulfill by the end of ns. HAHA!!((:

1. Dress making and making fashion accessories (start on it and learn how to create beautiful clothes and other products((:)
2. Cook delicious food (because i would have started learning.)
3. Have a successful blogshop (parasol circus)
4. Find LOVE (as in tt special someone)
5. Get better at designing clothes and other fashion related accessories.
6. Get my christian life back in order (ie start a routine QT, attend a CG etc.)
7. Photography (just to learn some basic skills, more of an interest)
8. Learn photoshop (i can finally creat something. lol.)
9. Learn to work and adapt to changes and people (no matter how ANNOYING)
10. Complete my portfolio for fashion sch by 2011((:

gosh. it already nearing the end of july and i realized that i havent really started getting my life in order because really, working is NOT the most fun thing to do and i do just wna slack and enjoy after a hard day's work but i need to start learning the relevant skills soon!!

so i have decided to make a list of all the things (the top 10 most important things) i must accomplish within my time in NS:
1. Find and start learning dress-making from a sch/tailor etc.
2. Invest some time in the blogshop (parasol circus) now that i have decided to commit to it.
3. Learn French (A language important in fashion i feel).
4. Practice my drawing skills (to improve in my fashion drawings which dont look very appealing now).
5. Start my portfolio (for design sch).
6. Continue to widen my knowledge of fashion (reading magazines/books/websites etc.).
7. Learn to cook (meals more than just instant noodles or frying an egg).
8. Learn to adapt to the different working styles and personalities of people (important skill especially when you are forced to work with the most annoying),
9. Get my DRIVING LICENSE (especially crucial and alarming since i failed my FTT twice and the pdf only last till october.).
10. Learn photoshop (which i have put off since like 2 yrs ago. HAHAH!!)

this is rather ambitious but i have to try to do what i set out to do if not i can just forget about a successful career. goshhhh.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

national day rehearsals may have its ups and downs. ytd was a downer because of people who werent very bright. MC to be exact. ive never seen someone who has such a lack of initiative. its a really long story (which if you wna find out just buzz me) but id rather not expand on it on this blog because its so long winded.

however on a happier note, i feel that this yr's national is probably a notch above the past ndps. i feel that the segments lined up are a little more funky not to exclude the fact that electrico is fronting the national day song this yr. ive heard mixed reviews about it but i personally its a good effort to include the youth in an event that has become more cliche over the yrs. being 19, ive watched at least 10 national days. its the same thing every yr, the routine parade and then some colourful performance (like OK seen that alr). this yr however, the concepts are more interesting and i think many people will enjoy the show. haha. of course the ndp showcase can improve, thats what progress is for isnt it.

anyway, heres the link to electrico's mv for the national day theme song.
http://www.ndp.org.sg/themevideo.php

Friday, July 17, 2009

i am super crazy about this song now. i LOVE the fact the leighton meester (my personal favourite gossip girl actress who plays the fabulous BLAIR WALDORF) is featured in this song. and the band cobra starship seem like a pretty cool band. boy did our girl from gossip girl rock it. xoxo u know u love me.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

omg you've all gotta hear this girl - vv brown. shes kinda unknown to me and probably to yall. i just visited one of the usual blogs i go to daily. anyway i love the fact that she has such a powerful voice, with a fabulous fashion sense and a great mv that is simple but classic helps too. haha.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

gosh im so bored on this wednesday night. here i am just sitting in front of the computer and rambling on about how sucky my life is. to tell u the truth, i kinda miss jc. even if it was stressful with work its still more fun than army. ive got friends no doubt but im not tight with most of them. not like jc. i want to go shopping because i really want new clothes!! notice how i didnt use the word need. haha. ive come to realize that material things matter to me but not as much as when i was in jc. ive come to realize that i treasure spending more time with my friends because the time i have with them is so limited. something i took for granted when i was in school because i used to see them everyday. now its like almost stepping into the real world. we have different lives and definitely different schedules so its hard to just meet up on impulse. sigh. this is why i miss jc. furthermore, i havent seen some friends in a really long time like frances maria and dharshinisizzles. hahaha. i miss their outburst and LOUD personalities. im kinda glad i have jayne, kester, wang guan, javier, my clique, johanna, rachel to really just go out when i need a breath of freedom which army really isnt giving me right now.
see. im just rambling from one pt to another. my life really has no particular direction. ive made so many plans, ambitious ones but i just dont know how to go about starting. i dont have the resources and enough time to pursue what is impt now and so i just continue on in this mundane routine tt i have everyday where i go to work, come home, go online then sleep and do the same thing the next day. in mdc everyone just wants SOMETHING from u. the bosses just want results results results and they want it immediately. sometimes i just feel like a robot doing what others want and not what I WANT! gosh. how unproductive my life is right now.

Monday, July 13, 2009

finally im well enough to actually blog. i suspect i got the h1n1 virus but it cant be confirmed since the doc just said there was a high chance but im so glad the whole thing is over. the sickness was kinda unbearable. my temperature at one pt rose to 39.2degrees. i was like walking in a daze because my temp was high and my head hurt so bad. every night was spent wrapped in blankets, coughing my lungs out like a crazy bitch. hahaha. i was kinda pissed that i cldnt go to anna's hse to spend time with wg, june, justin and obviously ANNA who will be leaving in 2 days time. sighhhhh.i just hate it everytime a good friend leaves. first it was charlotte, then joahanna, then now anna. everyone has been leaving one by one and sometimes i tell myself i cant just totally depend on just this bunch of jc friends but they have become my security blanket. sigh. independence is still key. i have a lot of growing up to do... obviously. but i do love being young, esp the youngest since im spoilt rotten by my lovely mdc seniors. HAHAHA!! i love them. going back to work was surprisingly not too tough and i managed today without any hiccups so tts fine. i just hope this week will pass uneventful or at best with good things happening. bad things would just kill me.

i must say: I WILL MISS ANNA WANG!

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

today marked the end of the treacherous 2 days i had in the wardrobe department. phew. not tt i get to slack now because since when does the slave ever get a time off. anyway i have to complain. gosh. i know it has passed but it was a horrible experience. last fri, my artistic director told me and MC tt we had to sew on stuff onto a t shirt (but it seems MC knew of it 2 weeks plus ago). so i was like ok and didnt really think much of it since we had to get out of company to do purchasing but i told her to bring it on saturday during ndp rehearsal so we wldnt have to rush and she was gg back to office. it was a good suggestion i felt but... NO she didnt listen and said we wld just do it on monday (slack bitch). come monday, we rushed out 3 tshirts but we had 7 to do so we each took back 2. tt wld be ok if she didnt make it a pt to go to the tailor THAT NIGHT and the tailor's was at BEDOK (which was a one and a half hr ride from home). in the end i stayed up till 130AM because i cldnt take it and i went to sleep and woke up at 530 am to continue. in the end there was NO VETTING tt day and she didnt even apologize for her inefficiency and inconsiderate attitude. gosh. but today, i got to rest a little, do more admin work which is MORE relaxing.
o and i met wg, my very very very good friend. haha. we had dinner at upp thomson, the five star chicken rice shop then went to have strudel. YUMMY. and of course we talked which is always a good thing becos frankly, i trust WG more than many other ppl. DUH!! haha. tmr shld be a little busy but not as bad but i just realized i need to shop real badly. ive not done it in a month. sigh. haha.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

ok first of all we'll start with saturday. gosh WHAT a busy day. i went this christian thing (not willingly) because i dont really see the need for this thing which i cant really say outloud because its kinda personal and then i went to frederick lee's shop around arab st. like hello if my parents didnt fetch me tt damn (lets give a code name MC) would have probably expected me to take like the MRT!! hello earth to MC, the bag weighed a tonne!! after this small episode, i rushed down to marina square, which has a maze-like carpark and then i went to meet the MDC ppl for rehearsal for national day. im was kinda sad and i still am because like i love to watch the national day parades but this yr i have to do backstage work which is kinda shitty.

i have to say that this yr's national day will be quite nice, at least for the segment that mdc is anchoring. it really evokes a sense of the classic fused with contemporary elements. and the costume are quite stunning visually although it does step on a thin line leaning towards the getai look. but anyway i thought the performance was quite cool. haha.

after tt i went to jeremy's party for about an hr because firstly i was damn tired, secondly i was not in the mood to party, thirdly the security guard stopped the music because ppl were complaining. so i hope jeremy had a fab party before tt because i was only there at 10pm.

today was youth sunday at bp cefc. it was good i would have to say, the ushers did a good job although their antics were kinda scary since they lined up in a row and shouted: WELCOME!! haha. i loved the worship because it was appropriate and the dance was quite good too. but i think joshua was the main highlight with his song. he sang well and he did have some stage presence. the message given by matthew was also well thought and it did sink in to me because i feel its so relevant and im sure many christians can associate with the message. meeting ezra, tim koh and the other youths were also part of the package tt made today's sunday service so AWESOME!! then there was the house-warming party i went for just opp my hse. haha. our church friends just moved into the new condo opp my hse and i was quite happy they invited all the familiar ppl. i had a great time just mingling and spending time with my close friends. we sort of grew up tgt. like from the start of our teens all the way till now. haha. so today's been a good day. i just pray that tmr wont be too stressful because ive got some major sewing to do and mayb ive to work overtime. but everytime such horrid stuff come my way, i think of the positive, which in this case happens to be the fact that i can expose myself to the design and tailoring part of singapore. this will definitely be useful in the future. anyway gotta sleep now. i got a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGG day tmr. ((:

Thursday, July 02, 2009

today was a really sssssssssssslooooooooooowwwwww day. i did a lot of admin work and i had a rather nice time just bonding with my friends in mdc. this is such a difference from the first day of work when i was so shy and i didnt even interact with anyone. every person there is so unique so i really love them all. hahaha.
o and i had dinner with WG which is always great because we just can talk non-stop about the most random stuff and we always have a good time at the end of the day. i'll so miss him when he goes to canada.
o and btw im still in a cold war with those horrid parents of mine. but life still goes on.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

recently theres been a huge war with the parents. i really share a love hate relationship with my parents. i wouldnt exactly say i hate them but i cant say i LOVE them either. i dislike my father quite a lot. in recent yrs we've somehow or rather tried to be civil and even start talking bout stuff at some pt. but what he did not too long ago destroyed it. he uses control to punish me. he put passwords on all the computers at home and when he gets angry, he changes them so i dont get access. firstly, tt is very very immature of an adult and at the same time, there has been a huge amount of disrespect thrown in my face. im 19 yrs old alr not some 5 yr old who can be punished this way. its kinda humiliating for me to be controlled at such a big age. furthermore, he whacked my leg when i refused to budge to his commands. inflicting violence is so last century. not only did he anger me, he alr left an emotional scar tt kinda destroyed everything tt was built recently. my mother is also another pain. she loves to create drama, making mountains out of a molehill and in the end getting me into trouble. if u hear what she was screaming at me for, u wld probably laugh. to cut the long story short, my parents really love to create trouble for me. sometimes i feel kinda miserable living in this hse, which is why im glad im an extrovert because my ability to make friends allows me to stay away from home as much as possible. i cldnt bear living in the same place as them 24hrs straight.

talking about gg out with friends, i recently went to watch TRANSFORMERS 2. for someone like me, a person who isnt exactly someone who loves action films, the movie was surprisingly cool and it really made my heart beat faster. it was the whole action and fight scenes that kept my adrenaline pumping. who knew that a show involving various robots, a geeky hero and his fabulously hot gf would be so interesting. i was really impressed with the way the robots looked. they were so realistic it kinda makes it hard to believe that they are actually created using technology when it alr feels as if they actually exist on Earth. haha. anyway, i would give it a 4/5 and ppl should really go watch it, not tt no one is not watching it since it broke quite a few movie records.

anyway, i hope things get better.