All I want is just this small space in a huge online world to rant and share what I really love. So you can either like it or hate it and F off <3

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gosh im so bored on this wednesday night. here i am just sitting in front of the computer and rambling on about how sucky my life is. to tell u the truth, i kinda miss jc. even if it was stressful with work its still more fun than army. ive got friends no doubt but im not tight with most of them. not like jc. i want to go shopping because i really want new clothes!! notice how i didnt use the word need. haha. ive come to realize that material things matter to me but not as much as when i was in jc. ive come to realize that i treasure spending more time with my friends because the time i have with them is so limited. something i took for granted when i was in school because i used to see them everyday. now its like almost stepping into the real world. we have different lives and definitely different schedules so its hard to just meet up on impulse. sigh. this is why i miss jc. furthermore, i havent seen some friends in a really long time like frances maria and dharshinisizzles. hahaha. i miss their outburst and LOUD personalities. im kinda glad i have jayne, kester, wang guan, javier, my clique, johanna, rachel to really just go out when i need a breath of freedom which army really isnt giving me right now.
see. im just rambling from one pt to another. my life really has no particular direction. ive made so many plans, ambitious ones but i just dont know how to go about starting. i dont have the resources and enough time to pursue what is impt now and so i just continue on in this mundane routine tt i have everyday where i go to work, come home, go online then sleep and do the same thing the next day. in mdc everyone just wants SOMETHING from u. the bosses just want results results results and they want it immediately. sometimes i just feel like a robot doing what others want and not what I WANT! gosh. how unproductive my life is right now.