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ambivalence. the kind of feeling i would describe the emotions that i have towards my job in the saf.
its been about 6mths since ive been serving the nation and i have to say that God has indeed blessed me abundantly with the friends that ive made and the many times he has gotten me out of trouble. but one thing is for certain. he wants me to face the harshness of reality, probably to get a slice of it if it isnt the entire onslaught of horror i'll face when im in the working world.

ive been happy enough in mdc with the job that i have. i get to live in the world of clothes although not exactly fashion, but its still material. ive also been recently an understudy to an alumni of mdc called heath. hes settling the costumes for ndoc 09 and i think so far from the materials he picked for the first iten, it look kinda good. i love the fact that hes a great mentor and he actually bothers teaching me something.

on the other hand, the downside of my job stems from the fact that im the 'new boy' which isnt really the case anymore but shit still happens. i'll be honest but i feel kinda shitty just gg for shows and LOOKING AFTER THE BAGS!! like hello. i was hired not to be a friggin maid. i want to go out and look at whats gg onstage. to appreciate the costumes. furthermore, there have been many occurances of my bosses giving me last minute work or last minute news. i esp hate it that they assume that i do not have a life outside mdc. they pile work on top of me over the weekend, which i cannot claim time off for but i dont even fight back. its kinda unfair to me if u look at it from my perspective. i understand their side of the story that they have clients to account to but hello im not a friggin robot. im a human being and human beings get sick too. i fell sick recently and when i returned to work (not fully recovered), the slave job was once again bestowed on me and as a result i fell sick again. i guess they cant really understand that returning back to work after taking a 2 day MC does not equate to the person having fully recuperated. whatever seriously but one day when i finally get so sick that i need to go to the hospital will they then understand the severity of giving a person time to breathe and take it easy.

well enough unhappiness for now.

recently ANNA WANG has returned from australia onto the the sunny island of singapore. we met for dinner and it was as if she never really left. true im not her best fren or anything but it sure is great to see a gd fren esp since many of them are leaving overseas to study, some not returning forever. blah. other than anna ive also been gg out quite a bit to meet up with friends and catch which is a good thing becos we should always keep in touch with the ones we love while breaking new boundaries to get to know new people. thats just the extroverted side of me speaking.

anyway i just hope that the coming weeks or should i say with a further perspective, the coming month, that things will look up for me and that i will take all the good and THE BAD in my stride and give glory to God giving me a life for me to journey in, find out more about myself each day and gain a world of knowledge.