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OMG. i swear life is treating me so unfairly. ok not tt im totally dissatisfied with my grades. but i feel that ive been unfairly graded. the first two grades of group marks and individual performance marks were totally acceptable and i understood the various mistakes that arose from it. But wad im so pissed about is the fact that i got a C for my contribution marks. LIKE WAD IN THE WORLD!! excuse me but i put in the same amount of effort as the group. we make up for things we cant do in other areas. for me i freaking tied the structure so hard that now even my hands are scarred. but i guess no one will actually find out because why. people do not see my effort and contribution and i refuse to announce my contribution to those people. ugh. i guess i'll have to accept that mark but i think it is so unfair because i actually stay back to paint the boxes, toy box, tie the freaking ass structure, paint the banner, which is wad the rest of grp members do and i get the LOWEST grade in the grp. hello. im the one who taught everyone how to tie the freaking knot. the outer appearance i guess is more impt since ppl who actually do not do anything can get a higher grade than me, and those ppl im talking about DO NOT come from my grp. my grp works tgt in unity but guess wad i dont think ppl think so. I guess im just a pain in the ass or an eyesore to them. i really hate it that my efforts are not recognized then my parents start to doubt that im actually putting in effort which i totally am. go and ask my grp members and they will tell you that our work was equally divided and they do feel angry for me. but guess wad. we hav to bottle up all those feelings. esp me. the victim of an unfair treatment. haiz i guess my life sucks tt way. on a brighter note, all my grades have improved from ugh inventio and im glad it has because my grp has grown so much tgt and we are totally fine with one another and actually enjoy each other and accept the quirks that we each have. at the end of the day, i will show that im not wad they think i am. i will show them tt i can be successful in life and no matter wad they do to me now, they can NEVER affect my life in the future. :)

this week has been such a tough week. full of emotions coursing through me and i always believed that God was beside me, making me stronger each time a blow was thrown at me. i realised how much i need God in my life. becos without him, i am nothing. goodness. how life seems to have passed so quickly. the stress of my life is practically drowning me. on wed and thurs, altogether, i had 4 hrs of sleep. fantastic isnt it. tts how i fall sick or go mentally retarded. i would like to give a shout out to...

MUMMY AND DADDY: who supported me every step of the freaking tiring journey and helping me, giving me the moral support to stay through the night. my daddy even drove to kesters hse for me just to get some photos. this is wad i call fantabulous parents. gosh. i wld hav died without them

KESTRINAAAAA (KESTER): thx for helping me with all the tech stuff becos im a computer idiot obviously. and the photos and for giving me the emotional support needed for this week.

my wonderful gs group (the royalty), samw, bev, dharsh, frances, jasmin, ed, my clique, my juniors, rose, denise etc etc (the rest prob noe who u r): thank you soooooooooooo much for supporting me and consoling me when i was sobbing lyk a baby. im such a cry baby but u were all there for me and i luv u for it. thx soooooo much u guys. i dunno how i wld hav survived without u all.

o and u all just have to watch gossip girls. my blogskin is alr the best publicity to go watch it. yes. it rocks. woohoo.


i swear. i need a life. OMG! everyday is lyk work work work or if not it is just studying for tests tt just kepp flowing my way. i cant stand this. i feel so much weaker than wen i was in sji. i feel so sad tt i do not hav the will power to persevere on like previously. i have such a bad feeling about my life in jc and sometimes i seriously regret tt i didnt take the poly route. i noe ive excepted the fact and all but still, its not a crime to whine about my life right. everyone needs some form of release and mine just happens to be the vocal way. i do not understand why ppl tell me tt im not working on this or tt wen IM FREAKING WORKING. my life does not just revolve around working thank u very much. havent they eva heard the phrase of all work and no play makes jack a dull boy?? i guess they hav dull lives. i noe tt i shldnt be complaining becos there are more ppl out there tt hav even less life than me and i shld be appreciatively but sometimes i look at myself and go: OMG why the ^&*&$^&*^ did i get myself into this immensely stressful system. mayb it was pride? or mayb it was my gd frens around me? I DONT KNOW!! but all i noe tt it is very tiring having to go through every sch day. i feel as if my super low is gg to arrive very soon. ppl might say im paranoid but tt is just the way i am. UGH! and recently, it has been so difficult to go to sch wen things are just getting so BITCHY! u noe its not tt im not bitchy but the thing is situations are BITCHY beyond my control. im just so tired sometimes. maybe its becos i havent been following god close enough. eva since i got baptized, the spiritual high was only there for a while, after which i have gone back to my original lifestyle. goodness. so many things to do and so little time!!! i need to have 20000000000000000hrs more to complete stuff. AHHH!!

and i almost forgot to declare on my blog...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DHARSHIZZLES. 18 YRS AND AS HOT AS EVER!!!

spice girls in the 1990s
spice girls today
i just have to give a major shout out to the SPICE GIRLS. They were the pop icons that hit me when i was so young. Their songs were the first that I listened to. Until today, as i went on to youtube to search for their songs, all the wonderful memories of their hits start coming back. haha. i know this post is really random but well, 've heard quite a lot of news about them re-forming to produce another album and all but i think that sceptical ppl are just quick to criticise that they are a bunch of grown girls that fail to present the idea of girl power anymore. but i definitely beg to differ. Their re-formation helps to show off the maturity that they have gone through over the past many years after they disbanded. OMG. their songs are just so catchy and fun-loving that i do actually feel happy listening to their songs. Recently, while typing my critical commentary, i didnt want to feel bored so i went to hear their songs and i just felt happy and cheerful compared to the rest of my frens who are so freaking bored writing their stuff. haha. anyway thx SPICE GIRLS for ur wonderful music and i sincerely hope that they break back into this super competitive music industry:)