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i swear. i need a life. OMG! everyday is lyk work work work or if not it is just studying for tests tt just kepp flowing my way. i cant stand this. i feel so much weaker than wen i was in sji. i feel so sad tt i do not hav the will power to persevere on like previously. i have such a bad feeling about my life in jc and sometimes i seriously regret tt i didnt take the poly route. i noe ive excepted the fact and all but still, its not a crime to whine about my life right. everyone needs some form of release and mine just happens to be the vocal way. i do not understand why ppl tell me tt im not working on this or tt wen IM FREAKING WORKING. my life does not just revolve around working thank u very much. havent they eva heard the phrase of all work and no play makes jack a dull boy?? i guess they hav dull lives. i noe tt i shldnt be complaining becos there are more ppl out there tt hav even less life than me and i shld be appreciatively but sometimes i look at myself and go: OMG why the ^&*&$^&*^ did i get myself into this immensely stressful system. mayb it was pride? or mayb it was my gd frens around me? I DONT KNOW!! but all i noe tt it is very tiring having to go through every sch day. i feel as if my super low is gg to arrive very soon. ppl might say im paranoid but tt is just the way i am. UGH! and recently, it has been so difficult to go to sch wen things are just getting so BITCHY! u noe its not tt im not bitchy but the thing is situations are BITCHY beyond my control. im just so tired sometimes. maybe its becos i havent been following god close enough. eva since i got baptized, the spiritual high was only there for a while, after which i have gone back to my original lifestyle. goodness. so many things to do and so little time!!! i need to have 20000000000000000hrs more to complete stuff. AHHH!!