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today was my first day in acjc. it was really filled wif a lot of apprehension. i wondered to myself on the mrt wat wld become of me in this entirely new sch. i was very sad and almost in tears wen the art teacher told me that my art was very weak and tt it wld really b a real struggle shld i take it for a levels. i was gg to cry but i dug my fingernails into my palm telling myself not to cry. wif so many ppl around, i wld just humiliate myself. furthermore the first part of orientation was so boring. there were lyk about 6 talks. it felt more lyk i was in a seminar. the onli time wen the orientation was fun for the WHOLE of today was the cheering session. noeing tt tim chua was in the ig grp made me feel so much better becos i was feeling so dejected ova the whole art matter. but in a way, dis lesson taught me dat i am not as gd as i tink and i really learnt humility in the most bitter way, by being rejected. tmr is my drama auditions and i really pray to god tt he will help me through the entire process and tt if it is his will afta i hav put in my best to go into drama, i really hope tt i'll b able to get in. as for the art part, dis small step of failure has continued to make me more determined to become a top fashion designer so dat i can prove to those who rejected me to show tt i can achieve and fulfill my dreams. i really dun mean to b arrogant in dis way but i hope tt ac wun b a let down for me. i really miss 1t03, i kept tinking of them throughout the day. i really miss them and the worst thing is dat i wun b able to attend rockafella becos i hav ac campfire on the same nite. i can onli hope tt i'll b able to go out wif my drama frens on saturday. god pls b wif me and help me in all i do. i really cannot achieve anything if it is not ur will for me to pursue wat i luv... signing out. a very sad and emo person:(